Happy Mother's Day!

Memorial of the Unborn Children by Martin Hudacek

Yes, Mother's Day is always bittersweet, but this year it's especially bitter. I was a mother. I am a mother. Clover died... but I was still his mother. He may have been with me for a matter of hours or days, but I was still his mom and Chris is still his dad.

I miss him and think of him often but I know Clover is with God and for that I am so thankful.

I stopped going to church on Mother's Day several years ago. I find it difficult. Yes, mother's day is for more than those who have conceived or adopted children and I appreciate the inclusiveness our church community puts on this day, for all the woman who are grandmothers, aunts, volunteers, and good "buddies" to all the children but it still doesn't quite ring true. No offense...just my humble opinion....

But today, today I am trying hard to stay positive and still put my trust and hope in The Lord. Chris and I did give a call to our Fertility Clinic last week and let them know we're ready to move forward and try again. We had told them "September" but they are booking for July. So...very possibly by the end of July we will be unfreezing our two embryos babies we've already named "Lucky" and "Charm" (we're sticking with the Irish theme we have going on here). We are praying both babies unfreeze and continue to multiply cells as they should so they can both be placed back in my tummy...

We shall see...

In the meantime, Chris and I are unpacking boxes at our new apartment and enjoying retirement... Oh yeah... we're retired now... chuckles It's strange to be retired at 37 but before long we'll be so busy raising children we won't even have time to work even if we wanted to!

God bless to all you mothers with children and children already with Jesus... I am praying for you ladies. Rest in the arms of Jesus today and remember to remain hopeful for tomorrow...