Tuesday, June 21, 2016

Thirty pregnancy tests....

I have taken about thirty pregnancy tests since Chris and I got married.... That's a lot of heart breaks to go through. It's a lot prayers and frustration and as Chris likes to point out a lot of fun trying!

I thought I might be pregnant this month since I haven't had a menstrual cycle since May. I had some subtle symptoms and it just felt like it was a possibility. We went in to get some blood drawn yesterday just to see if I was right. I was pricked NINE TIMES by the nurse drawing blood. She was in a grumpy mood and couldn't find my vein. scowls Finally, a little after noon yesterday the resident doctor gave us a call back. Nope. It was negative. soul crushing sigh

Chris' response, "You wanna go in the bedroom and try again right now?" suggestive eyebrow wiggle and cock of his head toward the bedroom

"Uhm....no." Thankfully, I know my husband well enough that he was not trying to be insensitive but instead was only hoping I'd laugh at his outrageous suggestion.

Today, I have a brighter perspective. No matter what, we will praise God. With  or without children... His will....

For all those who are trying to conceive, please know I am thinking of you today. hugs and remember, Proverbs 16:9 "In their hearts humans plan their course, but the Lord establishes their steps." Lean on Him... it'll help you get through those heart breaking negative results. He knows your pain and He weeps with you.